The jumps in the way you look at “you”

If I look back at my own life and try to remember the vague memories of my earliest childhood I see a reoccurrence.

Mindsets change, your perspective of the world changes; when you are a little child you touch everything, asking all the questions that pop up in your mind. You will climb trees, play with big ass spiders and walk a mile to the candy shop with the 25 cent you just found on the street. Old house are hunted and witches and werewolves are in every corner of the playground. You are in sync with nature more then ever at this time.

Now growing in to a puberty driven teen your view changes, you cannot just “play” anymore for the sake of playing. The competition drive of the other teenagers pushes you to some limits and you will start walking on the border with authority. Maybe smoking your first cigarette and buying a few cans of beer. Throwing up all over the bathroom floor after your first joint and blaming your cousin for doing so since you were staying over in his house and he didn’t remember a thing. Your play ground is not surrounded by threes and bushes anymore it got replaced with concrete shopping centres with fake flowers and an ugly fountain in the middle. The luck of finding cold hard cash on the streets when you were younger is gone or you are just to cool to pickup that 25 cent coin.

Working at the counter of Mac Donald’s is good enough, the play ground is the mall and the witches and werewolves have been replaced by the “gangsta’s” and the crazy old person who always keeps on acting like an idiot because of his “style”. Ooh and of course you will discover the other human species, the female ones.

Reaching the adult mindset I can see backwards and I can see the phases clearly now. What I have learned in this first quarter of my life is to say in one sentence.

“Your mindset changes because of others”

The way you look at the world and yourself is in my opinion the most important self discovery ever. You used to be influenced by people around you with out realizing it consciously, you would dress a like, listen to music a like and doing they shame dumb shit as the others. Now after going through those phases you will hopefully realize that you are doing it and you will have the ability to say No, to take control of yourself and the direction you will be taking in the future.

If I can give an advice to anyone who feels “stuck”?

Do something different every day. And don’t care about what others might say!

(In stat of coffee, drink tea) (Wake up at 6 in stat of 7) (Go on holidays to Iceland in stat of Spain) (Get out of the car and help the person in stat of thinking about helping the person).



Carpe Diem